After being officially done with school, for real this time, being employed again, and moving towards the next steps of life it seems I am confronted with nothing but questions. Limbo-land is unbelievably frustrating and beyond old. I feel like I have been here since February, and I will welcome clarity as soon as it presents itself to me.
The same questions remain, with unknown answers. Where am I going, what I am doing, how will I fulfill my potential...what is my potential, who will I become, how will I make a positive impact, where does the unbeaten path lead, what do I follow?
After that, one can't help but wonder, if money weren't an issue where would we be? What would we do? How would we live? As much as I would like to claim money is simply material, without it it's difficult to pursue any/all areas of dreams. It's also immensely frustrating that without money people cannot pursue education, good healthcare, healthy food, a decent standard of living..and often...the simple notion of hope. How does one change that? As I work two low-paying jobs I wonder how people with families in the United States make ends meet? As I work several hours a week I wonder how working parents know and raise their children, when, in order to provide for their children they must work excessive hours at their jobs? All things related to growing up seem utterly terrifying and unknown...I suppose a part of life...but scary none-the-less.
Along the lines of growing up, are those of staying young. How does one balance the desire to stay young at heart, while moving on to the next stage of ones life? Paying bills and rent paycheck to paycheck is far from ideal, but a 9-5 office jobs seems like it could squash many spirits. How does one determine the correct path for them?
Travel. I desire travel...domestic and abroad. Yet, to do so, involves money. I detect a pattern...
Teach me more languages. I wish to know more and to connect with people at a global level. The world is shrinking, yet will continue to be in conflict unless we learn about one another. How do we bridge the gap between cultures? Open minds and knowledge are imperative...
Music. Music is the universal language, and I miss actively participating in the music community. After recently playing in a symphonic orchestra I remembered the community that is developed around a common love for music. I got a tattoo of a bass and treble clef, united, representing the importance of music in my life...I hope it can soon become an active part of my daily life...beyond listening to Pandora/iTunes/the radio.
In short...I welcome answers to any and all areas of pondering anytime...in the meantime...I keep working and enjoying my pup, living day to day...hoping some clarity will come in my near future.
